Alpha Nicholas

Lily

I always knew that the day that I told Bonine the truth would be the hardest day of my life, but as it turns out, thinking about it and living it are two completely different things. Seeing the look on her face as I tell her the truth is soul-destroying, and it is a look that I know will haunt me for a long time and yet, Bonnie being Bonnie despite what she is feeling or thinking, is still showing me nothing but compassion and I think it somehow makes me feel worse.

I guess I expected her to get angry with me, not so much about the actual situation because, well, let's face it, it wasn't in my control, but I did lie to her... Yeah, that I expected anger for. What I didn't expect was for her to figure out that her dad was involved so quickly. The girl doesn't miss a trick.

"Please believe me when I say that I wanted to tell you right away, Bonine, but as soon as I told him that, he turned nasty and threatened to hurt you if I did, and we both know what he's already capable of. I can't even begin to think about what he would do if he was hurting you out of revenge for me.

"He did what?" Nicholas growls as his whole body shakes and I imagine that this is incredibly hard for him to hear, especially with Bonine's dad sitting right down the hallway. I wasn't a fan of him at first because of the hurt that he was willing to put my mate through, but something has changed. I don't know what it is, but if Bonine is happy, then I don't care what it is. To watch him being so protective of my best friend warms my heart. We haven't had time to talk about everything since discovering our mates, but I will be getting all the details asap!

"What did he say he would do... to me?" Bonnie doesn't seem shocked that her dad threaded her life if I told her about him and that is just heartbreaking. A girl should look up to her dad, and know that he would die protecting her, but Bonine doesn't have that but then again, neither do I. "He didn't say, Bon. He just said that if I told you...or anyone for that matter, that he would destroy you. I... I also told him that I was going to reject him the moment I turned 18, and again he threatened your life. I wanted to tell you, but I couldn't risk it. We both know that he would stick to his word and he knew that you were the person that meant the most to me."

She nods as Nick whisperers something in her ear but she appears numb to my words. "Are you ok, Bon?" Yes, I know it's a stupid question given the situation, but her silence is worrying me, I just need her to talk. She gives me a small smile as she nods her head. "I'm ok, Lil, really I am. I'm not surprised that he used me to try and keep you in line. If anything, I'm just fucking angry that he did that to you!" Oh, so her silence was her anger rising. Good, I'd rather she be angry than upset over that prick!

"You said that one of the reasons he threatened you was over your plans to reject him when you turned 18, so when was it you found out? There are laws in place to protect anyone underage from finding out!" Nick asks as I watch him continue to fight to keep himself under control. "Around 5 months ago. He thinks that he's above the werewolf laws, and so he told me. Of course, I'm betting that he had already thought about how to keep me quiet if it was needed before he had even told me."

"Of course he did!" Bonine practically shouts before somewhat calming herself down enough to speak to me without deafening the entire room. "So I'm guessing you told him that you wouldn't tell me after all?" I nod feeling myself tense up. I have to tell her something that isn't great but, hopefully, she will understand. I hope she will anyway. I've already told my mate everything, and he understood my reasoning for what I did. He was insanely supportive, and he's doing it again now as his hands rest on my shoulders and he gently strokes them helping to keep both Rain and I as calm as can be.

"I did. I had to, I had no choice."

"We understand. So how have you managed to keep him from hurting Bonine? We know he threatened you, but what happened after that? How have you managed to keep him calm and away from Bonine for this long? You said that you told him that you would reject him once you turned 18, what happened there?" Nick fires question after question at me seeming anxious for my answer, but I get it. He is worried about Bonine and needs to know if anything is coming her way.

"Well, you see, after he told me about our bond and threatened me we didn't speak for several days, and it killed me. Every moment of every day I was angry and on edge wondering what he was going to do, and I couldn't handle it anymore, so I went to see him when I knew that he was on guard duty. For some reason, he was covering someone's shift. I don't know why, but either way, it allowed me to see him alone. I planned to try and somehow stop him from hurting Bonine while also letting me go. Of course, looking back now, I can see that it would never have worked but then he decided to tell me something that would ultimately be what helped me get through it."

"What did he tell you?"

"When I turned up at his guard post he told me that he had been planning on calling me after his shift, that he was sorry about how he had acted towards me and that he wanted us to make a real go of things. He wanted us to be mates, even married and have kids if that's what I wanted. He seemed like he really wanted to do it all and that is what helped me."

"You didn't believe him, did you?" Robbie asks looking ready to kill at a second's notice. Already I've learned that he's the quietest of the brothers but just as lethal and he doesn't take kindly to anyone hurting any of his friends or family, and he's already made it clear that I'm family now, both Bonine and I so goddess help my ex-mate if Robbie starts right now.

"Of course not. Well, I did think that maybe he wanted that life but I also knew that it wouldn't be all the sunshine and roses that he was making out. I don't think he realized that I knew everything about him and the person he was which is what helped me. I pretended to go along with his plan. I pretended that I had taken some time to think it over and I had decided that I wanted him as my mate, wanted the life that he had planned. I made him believe that I wanted it all and, thankfully, I was convening. Convincing enough that I managed to get him to make somewhat of a deal with me.

"That was good thinking on your part, Lily," Nick says. "Can I ask what the deal was?"

"Of course, After I told him that I wanted everything he did, I also told him that I understood why he told me early but that I had always imagined meeting my mate at 18... that I had always imagined... mating at 18..." Several growls start bouncing off the walls of the guard room but I ignore them and carry on. "Thankfully, because he believed what I said he agreed to wait until I was 18 before we did anything... sexual including kissing which I was fucking grateful for, because not only did it keep Bonnie safe it also gives me time to turn 18 an-"

"And run away. We planned to run away as soon as you turned 18, so you managed to make him believe you and tag him along until you turned 18?" Bonnie asks her voice laced with a touch of amusement and her face showing pride." I nod smiling because I just can't help it. "Yep, that's exactly what I did!"

"That was a good move, Lily. Im going to enjoy having you as my sister!" Robbie laughs from where he's sitting in the corner. "But wait... the last 5 months..." Instantly I know where her mind has gone. "Everything was ok, Bon. Did I hate knowing that he was my mate? Of course! But the deal kept his hands off me, so the worst thing I had to do was to play nice whenever he caught me alone. If playing nice is all it would take to keep you safe, then I would do it for the rest of my life."

"So, what happened when you were brought back here the night of the ball? If Bonnie's dad is your mate then how is Shane also your mate?" I'm surprised to hear Will's voice. He's been so quiet that I forgot that he was here. "I can answer both of those questions with the same answer.

The night of the ball just before Bonnie and I left I called him on his cell and rejected him. He knew that if he didn't accept my rejection then he would suffer, so despite his anger over it, he accepted and I ran. Of course, he swore that the next time that he saw me I was dead, both Bonnie and I, but I knew that we would be gone before he could find us... well, I thought we would be... anyway, it was when I was brought back that my wolf picked up Shane as our second chance mate and I couldn't have been happier." Nick lets out a growl as he puts his attention on to me. "Lily, you have my word as your new Alpha and more importantly, as your new brother, your new family, that both you and Bonnie are safe. Every single man in this room would give their life to protect either of you. You are incredibly strong for doing what you did. Both of you are two of the strongest women that I have ever met and, quite frankly, I'm happy that you didn't get to run away, and I know that Shane will say the same, but I assure you that neither of you need to worry. Your demons are now our demons, and we will wipe the floor with the fucking lot of them!"