Chapter 140
140 Whispers II A while later , after I was done bathing and cleaning up , I was lounging in my room pretending to read a book while I was trying to remember how I got to the forest .
Was I sleepwalking ? Did someone take me there ? Was it Ramsey or Cassidy ? Did they leave me there so I would be attacked by a Feral and killed ? I shook my head at the thought .
Maybe Cassidy but definitely not Ramsey but I was ruling Cassidy out because Ramsey had kept a leash on her .
Since I was moved from White Lake to White Moon , he hasnt come to see me but Id heard the maids gossiping about how he and Cassidy were always together and that they cannot wait for them to get married so everyone can be at case .
Also , there were warriors stationed at the wing where I was staying , maybe they saw something ? Ill have to ask them later .
A knock at the door roused me from softer but still tinged with concern .
Can I come in ? he asked .
I give him a funny look .
Of course .
my thoughts .
Nathan poked his head in , his expression He closed the door behind him and sat on the edge of my bed , his eyes searching mine .
I just came from Nannys room and I apologized for how I sounded earlier .
I was just so scared … shitless scared .
No one had seen you , the warriors placed outside your wing said they didnt see you leave but couldnt account for the forty five seconds they left their post for the next shift to come on .
Still are you fine ? Did you really go for a walk ? I Yes ! I lied smiling brightly And you know how clumsy I can get .
Dont blame , Nanny , she tried to force me to go back but I was too stubborn .
Have you seen her wolf before ? I asked in an attempt to change the topic .
Yes ! he chuckled .
Sigma wolves are rare sights .
I saw it once when I was a teen .
She had gone for a run with your father but Alpha Logan made me promise him that I would not say anything .
about it since everyone knew she was an Omega back then .
Why ? I asked , Being a Sigma wolf is not a taboo is it ? Oh ! Nathan sighed , clamping a hand over his mouth , I shouldnt have said that Say what ? I eyed him strangely .
Sigma wolves do not live in packs , they live in Moon Temples .
People say theyre messengers of the Moon Goddess herself and live all their lives serving her .
Theyre not allowed to mate or do any other thing aside from that .
Didnt you know ? News to me .
No ! I shook my head She never mentioned it .
Thats because she might get into trouble .
Although , I never asked but I think Nanny must have run away from the Moon Temple or something like that .
Im sure my dad knows what really < 140 Whispers II happened , Ive heard him and your dad argue a lot of times about her staying at Blue Ridge but thats all in the past now .
Seems she finally reunited with her people .
I nodded but … that was a lot of information for me to digest .
Nanny has been by my side for most of my life but I didnt know anything about her .
Ive never asked questions or anything .
Nath ! Yes , baby, Do you think Im selfish ? I asked searching his face .
His expression changed a little Hard truth or an easy one ? I swallowed hard .
Hard truth .
He nodded , Youre selfish , Lyla … not a little bit but a whole lot .
Youre never present .
Like you might be friends with someone for ages but youre never interested in what they do or in their kind of person .
Thats not true , 1 frowned .
People interest me a lot Fine ! he shrugged .
Whats Nannys favourite meal ? You lived with her the longest , you should know that .
Umm … I bit my lips , sifting through my memory bank but I came up with nothing .
I honestly dont know but that doesnt count .
Yeah , he nodded .
Can you describe her in five words or sentences ? Maybe any peculiarity about her ? That one is easy , I scoffed .
Shes kind , observant , umm … loves coffee , loves me a lot … umm … swallowed hard , realizing I was beginning to sound ridiculous .
Nathan laughed , Nanny doesnt like coffee , she has some sort of allergy whenever she takes it and once , when your mom had been so angry , she threw grounded coffee at her .
She loves to run every morning , back then in the pack , shed run as far as the human border to get persimmons , shes crazy for them .
Her favourite colour is blue because that was the first colour she saw after she fell so sick one time and recovered .
Shes always draped in a shawl because shes constantly cold and thats because Sigma wolves do not have insulation like regular wolves , she is … How did you know all these things ? She must have told you , Im sure .
You know how I am , Im always careful with asking questions because I dont want to offend them .
Aside from the Persimmons and coffee , yes , she told us but the rest is what I noticed .
There are other nice things about her too and about me but I bet the only thing you know is my birthday and thats fine , we cannot all be perfect , he said the last bit quickly .
gods ! I ran my hands through my hair .
I really have a shitty personality Not shitty , youve soaked up in your hurt for so long that youre never aware of anything that goes on around you .
Its like youve built layers of walls … nothing goes in and nothing comes out but , I love you like that .
My eyes misted with tears .
Im a terrible person and now you mention it , I know almost nothing 140 Whispers I about you except your age , the year your mother died and nothing else .
I cant even remember .
Clarissas birthday , Gosh ! I chuckled sadly .
Once you open up your heart to trust and see hurting and being hurt as an unavoidable process , youll see the world is as colourful and beautiful as you .
Lyla … he drew closer to me and held my hands Youre an amazing person .
Fine , you dont know a lot of things about anything but youre kind , youre strong … stronger than you know , intelligent but not too smart … he said the last bit with amusement in his eyes But it can be improved upon when you try to notice more .
You mother everything you see … you were my mother all the time we spent as teens before I had to go abroad .
Even now , youre always fretting about me not eating or sleeping … I got that from Nanny , I laughed out loud .
goddess ! When I was in high school , she would badger me constantly about eating , exercising and things I had no business in doing even while we were still living in the pack Youre perfect , the only thing I want and hope you can get better at is to trust me and give me your heart completely .
I wont hurt you , Lyla … Id rather kill myself than do anything that makes you cry .
Nath ! I sniffed back tears Youre going to make me cry He stared into my eyes , down to my lips and then he leaned forward and started kissing me .
Slowly , his hand works its way beneath my clothes , stopping to rub under my breast .
I moan in his mouth .
He gently pushed the straps on my shoulders , placing open mouthed kisses on my skin .
You should rest , he murmured with a ragged breath .
I could rest later , I heard myself say as I leaned into his touch closing my eyes .
The things you do to me … I heard him sigh , his hand firm around my throat as his lips claimed mine again .
We kissed with reckless abandon , until he pulled away , resting his forehead on mine .
Moon ! … youll be my ruin , Lyla .
I want you so bad but … you need to recover first .
Im scared Ill hurt you .
I nodded still dazed by his kiss .
One moment , he was my friend and the next , we were talking about sex .
My life is filled with lots of surprises .
He reached for my hand , as his fingers Intertwined with mine .
Im going back home today .
Ive been away for two days , Im sure my father would be looking to strangle me now ? What ? I pulled away from him , my voice rising in surprise .
Why didnt you tell me earlier ? Give me a minute , Ill pack and go with you .
He shook his head firmly .
No , youre healing faster here and with the High Priestess still around , you should stay .
Once youve fully recovered , Ill come back and take you home .
My heart sank .
I want to go with you , I pouted .
10 Whispers II No maam , he smiled .
You still sleep 18 hours every day .
Youre still very weak .
I cant take chances .
Just a while longer okay ? he placed a gentle kiss on my forehead .
I just want you to be better I nodded reluctantly .
Fine , but Im leaving as soon as I I Can travel He nodded and kissed my neck .
Fuck ! he chuckled pulling away We need to get mated as soon as possible .
I want to claim and mark you so much .
Thats all I think about … I blushed deeply .
Ill miss you , Nath .
I swear … He smiled brushing a strand of hair from my face .
Ill miss you too , baby , Get well soon , okay ? And I mean it , no more morning walks .
I nodded , No more morning walks .
But it wasnt me this morning .
I was sure of it .
66 Lyla is about to get her wolf .
Because of how unique she is , its going to be different from falling sick etc like how it is for other wolves and well get to see Nannys maternal instinct more ( I discovered a lot of people already connected the dots , so no need to hide it ) .