Thread of Illusion

Davina POV

I have always wanted to be a mother. Nathan never wanted children. He barely wanted to touch me. He was always too busy working or screwing around. I nor my feeling were ever of any concern for him. I guess that was why it was so easy for him to find someone else. He never loved me. I am sure he cared for me. But love was not in the equation. Nathan was sweet and kind, but for some reason, he was never attracted to me in the way a husband should be to his wife. I know Sidney never wanted children. She is a wild free spirit. This is not her child anyway. It is the child of Insanna and Reid. I still do not understand how this baby will not be a god. I only know that I will love it. I will give it my heart. This will give me that purpose I so long for.

I cannot believe Rusty is willing to help me. Why is he so in love with me? In reality, I have always known. I have always been there one he called when he was in trouble or needed help. He acts out entirely too much. But in these last few days, I have seen something so different in him. Maybe there is hope for me and him. I am still married. I have to handle that at some point.

Today I will help welcome a child into the world. I am in awe of this. Who would have ever thought that I would get this honor? Not only to help a baby being born but under such strange circumstances. In the end, I will be this child's caretaker. We get off the elevator and I lead the way. I scurry down the hall in front of them to get a door open for them. I can tell Rusty is nervous having Insanna and her teeth so close to his neck. Sweet Rusty carrying her to the room to give birth. He could have said no but he is too kind.

I open the door. I prop it open for Rusty to bring Insanna in. I rush over to pull the covers back on the bed to make a place for Insanna to rest. Rusty comes in carrying her so gently. He lays her on the bed.

"I am pretty sure I need to come out of these clothes," she says.

"Rusty help her," I say to him.

Insanna begins to moan and scream as she moves onto the bed. She tries to undress laying down. It is very difficult for her. Rusty helps her by gently offering help.

I take a sheet and wrap it around her to give her something to cover herself with. I remove pillows from the closet and prop her up. I have no idea what I am doing at all. We need help.

"I am just throwing this out there but is any of the women ever worked in the medical field or had children?" I asked Rusty.

"I can go find out," he says.

Rusty leaves the room in a hurry. I do not really expect anyone to be able to help but it gets him out of the room and away from Insanna and her teeth for a few minutes.

I sit beside her on the bed. I am not going to talk just sit here in case she needs me. I know she is in pain. The last thing she needs is me asking her a thousand questions or staring in her face. "Davina, would you please get me some ice and maybe a washcloth," she says.

I go to the desk and grab the ice bucket. "I will be right back," I say.

I step out into the hall and walk to the left. I go into the vending area to get her some ice. I fill the bucket. I wonder if I will ever have this. Will I ever give birth to a child? She is doing something so wonderful and she does not even know how special it is. I take the filled bucket back to the room. I sit the bucket on the side of the bed for her to get ice as she wants it.

"Washcloth please," she says.

Oh right. I go into the bathroom. I grab to cloths from the cabinet. I run cool water over them in the sink. I take them both back to her and hand the cloths to her. She places one of her head and the other behind her neck. "Are you hot?" I ask.

"Yes, but do not turn on any air. Gods get very hot when giving birth. It is normal," she says.

"What can I do for you?" I ask her.

"Nothing, just stay here with me. You know you might want to pay attention. If you and Rusty have a baby it will be a demi and you will need to know how quickly and difficult it can be," she says. "Me and Rusty," I say.

"Oh, my sweet girl. Don't be stupid. Even I can see how much he cares. When I look in his heart I see your reflection. Don't let him get away," she says.

I know he has feelings. I know he has been there for me. This is not the time for all of this. We have a baby to safely deliver.

"You will need him. Raising a demi is going to be different. I know you can do that. I am doing this for you and for Rusty. If you only knew what they did to him all of those years for not being like his brothers and sisters. His mother's affair hurt that family. When she gave birth to a demi-god. It ruined everything. It set in motion the hate for women that Reid and Raymond had," she says.

I listen to her every word. I hang on to it as if I need it for life. Rusty was shunned by his family. This explains so much about his behavior over the years. It explains all of the broken marriages. It makes so much sense. I will give him a chance to show me how he can be with me.