Alpha Nicholas

Alpha Nicholas

After a few hours of talking everything through, I feel drained and above all else just plain fucking angry! Hearing Bonnie's story of what happened in the forest before we got there has my guts churning and my heart pounding and it's clear to see that both Tony and Alpha Harold feel the same. How fucking dare those pair of twats try and hurt my mate, my Luna. How dare they feel that they had the right to make that decision. Well, one thing is for sure, they are going to fucking pay for it. They are going to pay for every single second that they attempted to hurt my mate. For every second that they made her feel scared. Fuck are they going to pay!

Alpha Harold is already showing enough anger over Rowan's attempt on Bonnie's life so I can only imagine how he is going to react to the next part of our conversation. "Alpha Harold, there's more that you need to know." He gives me a nod as I watch him ball his hands into firsts dreading what's about to be said. "Yes, you mentioned that on the phone. What else is the issue, Alpha Nicholas?" I shake my head and look towards Bonnie who's still sitting on my lap looking down at her own lap and watching as he stiffens up when he realizes that it is once more concerning Bonnie.

"Bonnie, darling. Can you please look at me?" She doesn't move for a few seconds and I start to wonder if she even heard him but then finally she lifts her head and gives him a gentle smile while nodding her head. "Thank you, Bonnie. Can you tell me what's going on?" I feel her entire body move as she takes in a few deep breaths before she shocks me when she looks back at me and into my eyes. I'm not sure what it is she's looking for so I give her the best encouraging smile that I can while nodding and thankfully that seems to work as she turns her attention back to Alpha Harold. While I'm glad that she appears to have found whatever she was looking for I can't deny the joy both Storm and I feel at the fact that she sought us out.

"I don't know what to say... I don't know... I mean what if you... and then they..." She turns her head to face me and my heart cracks when I see tears in her eyes. "I'm scared," She whispers and it kills me to see her go back into herself. I gently cup her cheek and bring her face closer to mine. "I know you're scared, baby but I'm here with you, and no matter what happens I have your back." She sniffles as she nods her head while she tries to fight back fresh tears.

"I have your back too, Luna." Tony's words make her turn to face him, and it's clear that she wasn't expecting to hear that from him. He gives her his best smile while I give him a nod of appreciation for trying to make her feel better. "Thank you, Tony. That means more than you will ever know." She turns to face me once more and even though she isn't crying now it's clear to see that she still feels the same. "What if no one believes me? He's the future Beta... My dad's the current Beta and I'm just a girl who's responsible for her mother's death."

"I'm sorry, say that again?" Alpha Harold's words stop me from saying anymore but Bonnie doesn't move to look at him nor does she say a word. "Bonnie, baby. You need to tell him everything. There's no reason for him not to believe you but even if he doesn't believe you, I do and I always will."

"Bonnie, darling. I don't know what's going on but I need you to talk to me. I've known you since the day that you were born and if there is one thing I have come to learn about you is that you don't lie so please, talk to me, please tell me what's going on. If someone has hurt you... or is hurting you now I need to know, I want to know because I won't stand for it!"

His words are firm yet gentle and seem to work their magic on my mate as I feel her slightly relax then go on to spend the next hour telling him all about the abuse that she has received from her family from as young as she can remember. I didn't know much about the situation myself so hearing what she had to say has gotten me so angry that I'm starting to worry that I won't be able to hold it in for much longer around Bonnie and she doesn't need to see that.

"How can anyone treat another person like that? And he's her father, he is supposed to be the one to protect her and keep her safe. He's supposed to make sure she is fed, clothed, and warm, and yet, he's done the complete opposite of all of that. He's a sad excuse for a man and wolf and he's a fucking dead man for what he has done to my mate. His death is going to be long and painful and I'm going to enjoy every moment of it.

I feel a soft warm hand wrap around mine and quickly realize that it's my mate's hand. "You were growling." She doesn't sound scared, if anything she sounds like she knows exactly why I'm growling, and I'm glad for that. The last thing I want is for her to be scared of me in any way. "Sorry, darling." She doesn't say anything just gently runs her thumb over the back of my hand and somehow it calms me down a huge amount.

"You know you are not to blame for your mother's death, don't you?" Alpha Harold looks furious and it's nice to know that he believes in my mate. She nods her head as she takes in a deep breath, "I do logically but when you get told something repeatedly it tends to stick in your head, and sometimes the line between truth and lie can get so intertwined that it's hard to know what to believe any more."

"I understand that but, Bonnie, please listen to me when I tell you that it is not your fault. I was there the night your mother died. I was right outside the delivery room. It wasn't your fault. It wasn't anyone's fault. It was just a sad sad thing that happened and I'll be honest I was devastated when it did.

I liked your mom, she was an incredible woman, an incredible mother and she would have been an incredible mom to you too. If she could talk to you now she would tell you that it's not your fault and it is a shame on your dad's part for even thinking that never mind saying it and getting your brother and own twin sister involved is just sickening. Why didn't you come to me, Bonnie? I would have helped you, surely you know that?"

"I did know that... I do... but he... he threatened to hurt my Gran if I told anyone and I know that he would do it." The more she talks the more my anger rises and by the looks on their faces, Tony and Alpha Harold are right there with me. "You should have come to me, Bonnie. We would have figured out a way to deal with it without anyone knowing that you came to me."

"I didn't think about that being an option, Alpha. So many times I stood outside the door to your office willing myself to knock on the door, telling myself that everything would be ok but I just couldn't do it. I'm sorry."

"You have nothing to be sorry for, nothing ok, sweet girl. I just feel incredibly protective of you and I'm sad that I didn't get to stop this sooner." I feel her body start to tremble and I know she's fighting back more tears at the kindness she is being shown but his words make me angry.

He is clearly somewhat protective of my mate which is good to hear but why the hell didn't he protect her? How couldn't he see what was going on? I want to ask him but Storm stops me. He's choosing now to be rational and it's pissing me off but despite his words I still find myself spilling out the words before I can even stop myself. "How couldn't you see what was going on? Why didn't you protect her!"

"Nicky, don't do that, please. It wasn't his fault. I've always been good at hiding it. It's no one's fault but my dad's. Alpha Harold has always been good to me, please don't take it out on him." My mate's pleas are heartfelt, and it's easy to see that she means every word but it's still hard for me not to blame him.

"She's right, Nick. You know she is." Tony adds. I sigh as I try to let some of the anger go but it isn't easy. "I know you're right, I know you're both right but I'm just so angry that it's hard... I just..."

"You just need someone to blame." Alpha Harold says and I quickly realize that he's right. I rake my free hand through my hair in frustration "Shit, yeah your right. I'm sorry, Alpha Harold and I hope you can forgive me. I know it's not your fault."

"There's nothing to forgive, Alpha Nicholas. I can't say that I wouldn't react the same way if I was in your place. I will do whatever is needed to make sure that those who hurt Bonnie are dealt with. Whatever you need from me or my pack consider it yours." He's a good guy and I'm a dick for taking it out on him.

"They have your father and sister in the cells, Bonnie. We need to get back down there but you don't have to come if you do not want to I'm sure Nick will have Lola come and sit with you." Tony's words have me eager to get back down the cells so that I can start ripping people apart and as much as I know Bonnie deserves to be there, there is also a part of me that doesn't want her to come down because I don't want her to see who I am going to become.

"I'm coming down. I want to face all of them. I want to see them pay for what they have done!" For the first time since we stepped into my office my mate sounds determined and dare I say it scary and it makes me happy as a pig in shit. I love seeing this side of her and as much as I don't want her to see my bad side I think her going down there and standing up to them will help her. Hopefully seeing how strong she is will be just what she needs to help her move forward with her life. Her life at my side and as a Luna.